Last week, God closed the door on a prayer request my family had been praying toward for several months. We were extremely disappointed even as we fell back on our faith that God always knows what He is doing. We got our answer Friday evening and one of the many thoughts that ran through my mind was that it might be difficult to lead worship on Sunday singing an uptempo song about the great things that God has done. I certainly didn’t feel like it in that moment.
Brian Beasley Music Posts
Although this blog is titled “Brian Beasley Music,” many of you may have wondered where the “music” part has been hiding! I’m happy to release my first song in a while, called “One Soul” and share it with all of you. A link to the song is at the bottom of this post – I hope you enjoy it.
There is something in us that desires the attention of others. As our children demonstrate when they cry out, “Daddy! Watch this!”, this craving starts at a very young age. As we get older, we might tell ourselves that we would rather fit in and not be noticed, but we never stop searching for the approval of others. This doesn’t go away when we serve in a ministry position and perhaps becomes more difficult to deal with the more visible your area of ministry becomes.
I’ve recently come back to blogging after having to step away from posting during a season where I served as the chair of a Pastor Search Committee. If you have spent any time at all serving in a local church, there are few things that cause more anxiety than the mention of, need for, and prospect of serving on a PSC. But back in August of 2017, I received a call from our senior pastor asking me to pray about whether I would be willing to serve on the committee that would be looking for the next one since he was retiring in 2018 after serving our church for 30+ years.
One of the most important things for growing in our relationship with Jesus is establishing a daily time to read the Bible and pray. I believe that so strongly and it has certainly been true in my life. When someone is just starting out in committing to this daily “quiet time,” it can take discipline to keep it up day after day. There were times in my life where I would read a chapter, say a quick prayer, check it off of my to-do list, and get on with the rest of my day. I wasn’t really getting a lot out of it. Sometimes I would pick up a devotional book and get a new boost on really having an effective study and prayer time, but I would soon find myself slipping back into a stale routine.